"As my therapist saw my physical distress with chest pains and ulcers, and seeing that I wouldn't or couldn't cry or get angry, he was very concerned. In desperation, he advised me to find an outlet, whether it was drawing, painting, or poetry. I chose poetry, or rather--'Writings From My Soul.' My inside parts jumped at the chance to express themselves because it was clear to me that unless I could reach in, pull out, and express the feelings and memories inside, I would literally not survive. It was truly a life or death situation." (My Tears Fall Inside, page 60)
The next time I had chest pain, I let the parts write whatever they wanted to. I wrote four poems in an hour and immediately, the chest pains subsided. I was shocked. The poems were very sad and depressed, but that is what I needed to express.
"Once my parts discovered they could express themselves through these writings, the flood gates opened. From that point forward, I allowed any part a chance to write whatever was in 'her' heart." (My Tears Fall Inside, page 62)
It is important to note that even though many of my poems were very heartbreaking, sad and even showed that many parts inside wished for death, the very act of writing out those feelings actually helped relieve some of those emotions as well as taking away the physical pain. It was as if my body was a giant pressure cooker with no means of letting any of that built up steam escape. Writing added the little cap on top of the pressure cooker that wobbled back and forth and allowed measured amounts of that steam to escape.
If you are suffering from depression, anger, sadness or any negative feeling find an outlet. You will find relief in the process. Remember that what you write, paint, or draw is just for you and you don't need to worry if it is "good." This is not a contest and whatever you do will be just what it needs to be.
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