"Some of my parts were very strong and dominant in my life; others were not, but all of the parts functioned as my internal 'cast of characters' throughout the healing process.
"Eventually, and with God's divine intervention, I was able to have the assistance of an external cast of characters who worked in concert with my internal characters. These 'external' people were just as amazing as my inner 'people' or parts. While my internal parts were a testament to the God-given powers of the mind, my external parts (friends) were a testament to the power of God's love, but how much can you ask of a friend? Are there limits to Christian love? I was dealing with an extremely complex mental, emotional, physical and spiritual condition that could drain the energy of people around me. Indeed, I was as needy as a small child even though I was in an adult body. Would I find anyone willing to support me in what appeared to be a bottomless pit of neediness?
"Would I dare ask?" (My Tears Fall Inside, page 63)
These child parts were as real as a physical child of the same age. Not only that, but these child parts were suffering extreme trauma from the affects of torture and abuse. As their memories surfaced, the child felt as if the event had just barely happened so their insecurities and fears were massive.
In the early stages of my healing journey, I didn't trust people enough to let any of them into my world. Since I thought I was crazy, how could anyone else think differently? I also believed that everyone else had more value than I did, so I didn't want to "bother them" with my "stuff."
There was no way I would take the risk of letting people into my world. It was only through God's intervention that people were brought into my life who could reach me. Thankfully, He had a plan.
No matter how complicated our life is, God sees the bigger picture and if we rely on Him, He can create amazing and unusual circumstances which will facilitate us. He can touch people to reach out to us, but He can also give us courage to reach out to others. How have you seen God's hand in your own life?
"Eventually, and with God's divine intervention, I was able to have the assistance of an external cast of characters who worked in concert with my internal characters. These 'external' people were just as amazing as my inner 'people' or parts. While my internal parts were a testament to the God-given powers of the mind, my external parts (friends) were a testament to the power of God's love, but how much can you ask of a friend? Are there limits to Christian love? I was dealing with an extremely complex mental, emotional, physical and spiritual condition that could drain the energy of people around me. Indeed, I was as needy as a small child even though I was in an adult body. Would I find anyone willing to support me in what appeared to be a bottomless pit of neediness?
"Would I dare ask?" (My Tears Fall Inside, page 63)
These child parts were as real as a physical child of the same age. Not only that, but these child parts were suffering extreme trauma from the affects of torture and abuse. As their memories surfaced, the child felt as if the event had just barely happened so their insecurities and fears were massive.
In the early stages of my healing journey, I didn't trust people enough to let any of them into my world. Since I thought I was crazy, how could anyone else think differently? I also believed that everyone else had more value than I did, so I didn't want to "bother them" with my "stuff."
There was no way I would take the risk of letting people into my world. It was only through God's intervention that people were brought into my life who could reach me. Thankfully, He had a plan.
No matter how complicated our life is, God sees the bigger picture and if we rely on Him, He can create amazing and unusual circumstances which will facilitate us. He can touch people to reach out to us, but He can also give us courage to reach out to others. How have you seen God's hand in your own life?
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