“And if I thought being numb was so bad, how about the opposite? When the opposite of being numb is feeling, and when those feelings are described as ‘jagged pieces,’ what are my options?
“HEARTS
(By Morticia - 1991)
“My heart aches
I’ve gone inside to check and
something is wrong.
“If two hearts can be one,
can one heart be two?
“My jagged pieces of a heart
push out at the hammer to
stop beating them.
“But it pounds oblivious to the
raw jagged edges.
“Are the drops that fall from within
blood or unshed tears?
“My heart aches.
(By Morticia - 1991)
“My heart aches
I’ve gone inside to check and
something is wrong.
“If two hearts can be one,
can one heart be two?
“My jagged pieces of a heart
push out at the hammer to
stop beating them.
“But it pounds oblivious to the
raw jagged edges.
“Are the drops that fall from within
blood or unshed tears?
“My heart aches.
“Throughout 1991, my ‘team’ of Christian friends was beginning to take shape. As I gained trust in them, I was eventually able to allow them to help me overcome my numbness. When the ‘jagged pieces’ of my heart could be soothed by the loving embrace of a true friend, I could afford to let go of my tight hold on those painful emotions. Also, when my self-sacrificing friends showed their love in countless ways, a door was left open to begin to consider the possibility that maybe someone could love me.
“In September of 1991, I was interacting daily and sometimes multiple times each day with various team members. Feeling upset that I was in constant need of support, I talked to Sarah about my concerns. In this journal entry, she offers a very profound and loving answer that might be of interest to anyone considering becoming a support to someone in need:
“I talked with Sarah and when I told her how maybe it’s not fair that I need her help to carry my burdens, she said, ‘But they are not just your burdens, but the burdens of the world and it is mankind’s problem—not just yours. . . We really are brothers and sisters here and it is all our problem to fix.” (My Tears Fall Inside, pages 140-141)
Sarah profoundly said it all!
“In September of 1991, I was interacting daily and sometimes multiple times each day with various team members. Feeling upset that I was in constant need of support, I talked to Sarah about my concerns. In this journal entry, she offers a very profound and loving answer that might be of interest to anyone considering becoming a support to someone in need:
“I talked with Sarah and when I told her how maybe it’s not fair that I need her help to carry my burdens, she said, ‘But they are not just your burdens, but the burdens of the world and it is mankind’s problem—not just yours. . . We really are brothers and sisters here and it is all our problem to fix.” (My Tears Fall Inside, pages 140-141)
Sarah profoundly said it all!
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