“The response from Bishop Scott was very important to me because the abuse and ritual brainwashing in my life made me believe that no man could love me. In fact in the beginning, I was so afraid of being close to any man, that when Bishop Scott shook my hand, if he held it for a split second longer than usual, I pulled away - feeling afraid.
“Here was a man who looked into my eyes and loved me enough to make me a top priority, without any hesitation. It was a shock to me, meant a great deal to me, and set the stage for a trusting relationship that allowed me to open up to other trustworthy men in my life. In fact, Bishop Scott met with me twice a week for several weeks, getting to know some of my child parts on a personal basis and counseling with them. He also counseled with the adult me about my marriage.
“If I had any leftover concerns about Bishop Scott, they were soon dispelled by a dream I had about him shortly after my initial meeting. At this time, I was second-guessing myself and asking myself whether or not I was crazy or maybe overly sensitive. I had told my bishop many things about me and my husband and my insecurities were starting to come through. I wondered if he could possibly continue to think I was a good person.
“In my dream, we were outside with a lot of people, with tables all around, rather like a church party or picnic. I was sitting in a chair and Bishop Scott came up behind and to the side of me. He put his hand on my shoulder and gave a quick squeeze with his fingers. I glanced up at him and he just smiled at me, and immediately I felt more secure. I felt he was trying to let me know that he still thought well of me. It really reassured me and I didn't worry as much about it after the dream.” (My Tears Fall Inside, pages 102-103)
God was directly involved in my healing process. He led people to me who could help me and He reassured me through His spirit as well as through dreams. Trust issues were so massive, however, it was a very long, intense, and difficult journey.
“Here was a man who looked into my eyes and loved me enough to make me a top priority, without any hesitation. It was a shock to me, meant a great deal to me, and set the stage for a trusting relationship that allowed me to open up to other trustworthy men in my life. In fact, Bishop Scott met with me twice a week for several weeks, getting to know some of my child parts on a personal basis and counseling with them. He also counseled with the adult me about my marriage.
“If I had any leftover concerns about Bishop Scott, they were soon dispelled by a dream I had about him shortly after my initial meeting. At this time, I was second-guessing myself and asking myself whether or not I was crazy or maybe overly sensitive. I had told my bishop many things about me and my husband and my insecurities were starting to come through. I wondered if he could possibly continue to think I was a good person.
“In my dream, we were outside with a lot of people, with tables all around, rather like a church party or picnic. I was sitting in a chair and Bishop Scott came up behind and to the side of me. He put his hand on my shoulder and gave a quick squeeze with his fingers. I glanced up at him and he just smiled at me, and immediately I felt more secure. I felt he was trying to let me know that he still thought well of me. It really reassured me and I didn't worry as much about it after the dream.” (My Tears Fall Inside, pages 102-103)
God was directly involved in my healing process. He led people to me who could help me and He reassured me through His spirit as well as through dreams. Trust issues were so massive, however, it was a very long, intense, and difficult journey.
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