"DEB: Deb was a twelve year old part. I believe she was created at that age because some part of my brain could sense the craziness inside and needed a way to appear normal. Twelve year olds do NOT want to be weird or different, so Deb was very teenaged in her attitudes. She was a protector of the 'child parts' within, and helped control these parts so that other people would not know that they existed. Deb taught all of the inside 'child parts' the rule that everyone needed to respond to the same name (Shawna) so that no one on the outside would find out about them. She seemed to sense that if others found out about all of the personalities, we would get locked up and everyone would know we are crazy.
"Deb did everything she could to make us appear the same as everyone else in the world. She did her very best to keep everything inside 'under wraps.' She observed everything around her and liked to think of herself as an intellectual survivor. Deb was so effective in her role that very few people ever had a clue that I had distinctly different parts." (My Tears Fall Inside, page 56-57)
"ANGEL: Angel was also created when I was a very young child and continued to grow up with me into adulthood. Angel loved the Lord and always wanted to do what was right. She tried and tried to be good all of the time but never felt that she was good enough to be worthy of love.
"Angel was a major part of the core personality. She was a very dominant part during all of my teenage years and into my early married years. I once asked my husband to please call me Angel. He wouldn't do it, and now I am glad. It frightens me to think that by that time, Angel was so dominant she wanted to be called by 'her' name instead of by what everyone else called us--Shawna. Angel felt she had to be perfect to be loved or lovable." (My Tears Fall Inside, page 57)
Meet a few other personalities in my future blogs.